Harusame

About the Twilight series...

2009-12-22T03:55:58Z

... it's just me or it's infecting some fandoms, particularly the Kingdom Hearts one?

Geez, one fic was good, but now we are having a massive collection of KH-Vampiresque AU that are dangerously approaching the level of "bad written sugary cliché"

And PLEASE stop making Zexion so emo... or Demyx so dumb. Marluxia may have issues but he certainly isn't a dumb FABULOUS happy gay like people seem to think... crack!Marluxia is cool. Serious stories with Happy-bo-lucky perv Marluxia... not so much.

And Larxene is a sadist. She can't be "sweet". She can be "kind in her own cruel way" though.

... did I also mention I'm not much of a fan of Twilight? Why? IT'S THE MAIN CHARACTER'S FAULT!!!! She is just a little bit close of becoming a Mary Sue. She is BORING. Just like that. I started reading it borrowed from a friend... and I couldn't stand reading it more, for real -.-;

Bought "Black Record" book today

2009-12-18T18:46:54Z

I haven't spent money on myself with useless expensive stuff for more than two months when I saw a fresh new copy of Kuroshitsuji's "Black Record" artbook wrapped on plastic on the balcony of our local Japanese bookstore.

I requested to check the book and looked through the pages for a while.

That's when I though "Oh, whatever, I don't know Japanese, but this book is so beautiful! XD" (Same happened when I bought Code Geass' "Mutuality" book) and bought it.

Now I can drool over Sebastian everyday XD. I particularly like the character design and costume design sheets on it, and the cover is GORGEOUS.

And Grell's pages make me giggle like a fangirl X3.

I swear to post a Xmas pic

2009-12-15T15:44:15Z

No, I'm not dead in DeviantART. Just too busy. But I promise you a Christmas pic... however late it might be posted in the future XD

I need therapy urgently

2009-12-12T17:55:23Z

After talking with some friends and ranting on my last journal, I'm considering taking therapy, although I don't think it will solve my problems. Most of my problems cannot be solved by me coming in terms with myself, but depends on others to see that their actions may be harmful to others. Unfortunately good sense is something humanity is losing lately, and the capacity of understanding others as well. Not saying we are a bunch of hypocrites and egoists, I still have lots of faith in humanity.

But damn, people are really losing the ability to know when they are being disrespectful.

I have to the conclusion that, while I'm here ranting, some of my friends are having somewhat similar problems with other people we know. So, while we all have to fix problems about ourselves, maybe part of the problem is the other one?

I also found out it's easier for me to write than speak those feelings and thoughts. I think if people actually knew me and could read my thoughts they would be so scared of me. I'm not a cute sweet girl 100% of the time, you know? I guess people from internet may know me better than my real life friends, cuz they are more familiar to my drawings... my drawings are very well the reflection of myself. I draw cute stuff no doubt, but you all know I can draw very serious stuff.

I like to compare myself with Zexion from Kingdom Hearts, a friend of mine points out I'm pretty similar to him in personality. I also think I have some anger issues like Kuja from FFIX has... which is why I say people should be glad we are not in Final Fantasy universe, because I would probably have destroyed so many things out of anger. I really try hard not to snap but when I do... things don't go pretty. I can be really mean if I feel like doing it. I'm not a person to hurt others physically, but mentally. And I guess this is much worse than me giving a punch at someone's face.

I have to take this out of my chest somehow...

2009-12-10T23:11:36Z

Prepare for long rant.

I love my friends, I really do. They are great to hang out, fun and cheer me up all the time. I couldn't have asked for better friends.

But I'm tired. So tired. I feel dumb by the end of this year. I go to all classes, try to do all my works on time, study and now I work on college too. It's nice to work there, I have fun and I've learned many stuff already. But it tires me, I arrive at home at 7, or 9 pm almost everyday AND I also have to do stuff for college.

I really shouldn't be complaining, right? It's my decision to start working.

But still...

Why do I feel like my friends are all mocking my efforts? They don't go to almost any class, don't pay attention, but still get a copy of someone else's notes (mine include) and learn everything. I rarely see them everyday now, and they spend the day well... sleeping and going to shopping malls? Of course they must be doing very important stuff and I'm not saying people should be neurotic with college.

However, did I say I was very, very tired? I don't know why, but this end of th year is being the worst so far. I'm seriously thinking I'm with some emotional disturb, I feel like crying, screaming, I feel jealous and anger towards my friends right now. I feel like it's just too unfair. I'm feeling moresick and more tired everyday, I haven't gone out to relax for more than a week. I also feel frustrated with love issues, since I'm getting the feeling no man will ever ask me out. I feel like shit. I won't have what I wanted for Christmas because Amazon.Com said so. There are some group works that I feel like writing a letter to the teacher saying "[insert name here] didn't do a thing, helped very little, almost never appeared", because I'm not a secretary that has to call someone when they decide it's nice to dump work. I want a cat, mom doesn't agree with me. I sometimes wonder if my parents see that I'm not okay.

Cuz, really, I'm not okay.

But I don't complain that I can't see my non-existing boyfriend/girlfriend.

I don't complain I haven't gone out for weeks with hope that someone will let me go.

I am, however, almost not going to college anymore (except next Monday) because I'm truly sick, I'm not feeling well and my head hurts from lack of sleep.

I won't even start with listing how many times people said they were going to help me, but didn't. I won't even tell how many times I trusted someone and they only pushed me off the cliff.

I feel abandoned many times, as if no one besides my family cares for me. I feel that they are mocking me. I feel that I'm the only idiot who is killing herself with studies and works when others just continue to sleep more and going out more and wasting their money, because somehow they manage to get out of their own mess later.

I want holidays. And I don't want to meet anyone from college for at least a month. Because they are confusing me. Am I the only one who is doing all wrong by doing what is supposedly the "right" thing to do? Should I be just like them and go "fuck it" and hope someone else will do the work for me? My heart and mind says no, but this internal conflict is piercing me right now.

What is worse: EVERY ONE OF THEM is complaining that the other is a lazy ass who doesn't do a thing! When most of them ARE a bunch of lazy asses too. I myself feel very bad sometimes, I wonder if they think I'm lazy too. I don't have the heart to openly yell at them all of this that I'm writing, it simply doesn't come out of my mouth. But I had to take it off somehow, because it's torturing me. Even if they think I'm just a annoying, picky person. I just had enough and I am about to explode anytime.

Ignore me, probably most of what I wrote here doesn't even make sense. Yet I feel a bit lighter after writing here. I don't care if they read this or not, nor what they think about this. Although I hope they forgive me if they read and think that what I wrote here is all lies. I just wanted to put in written words how I'm feeling right now. Maybe I had the hope to find an answer... maybe not. I just don't want to lose my friendship, I don't want to snap at others. But it's getting harder and harder.

Dear college's staff...

2009-12-08T21:18:41Z

... YOU HAVEN'T PAYED ME YET D:!!!!! WHERE IS MY F***** MONEY ?!?!?!?!

It's decided. If I get a cat, I'll name him Sebastian XD. SPECIALLY if he is black. I can't wait to see second season X3!!!

Lol, end of my random entry XD

ROFL XDDD

2009-11-25T15:46:05Z

My dad sent this video for me, it's hillarious! XD

Grumpy Puppet XD

I FINISHED IT!!!!!!!!!!!

2009-11-15T19:07:00Z

DFF Arcana 0 - The Fool by ~eikomakimachi on deviant ART

We had a huge blackout yesterday

2009-11-11T09:27:50Z

Yesterday I was on MSN and finishing stuff for college when suddenly my computer turned off and my lights started to go crazy, until all the energy run out. I sent a text message to a friend saying I couldn't finish the work because of that and, surprisingly, he replied that he and other two friends of ours were also without energy at home.

Then I got a bit alarmed, as those three friends of mine live in different parts of the city, and the one I texted lives very far from my home. I decided to listen to the radio of my cellphone, since it was still working.

Then I heard the news.

Not only my whole city was in the dark, but almost all the state. Then it was said that other states were without energy too. 15 states of my country, plus Paraguai, which uses the same energy system than us, were affected. That was really scary.

More info: Fox News

Just to let you know...

2009-11-07T21:40:55Z

... I SWEAR I'M WORKING ON MY ENTRY FOR THE DISSIDIA TAROT PROJECT D:

But since I decided to draw it directly on computer, this is taking longer than I expected D: *inking it on photoshop*

Feeling much better :)

2009-11-03T01:18:16Z

I had to take a break from things related to college, just thinking about them was making me snap :(

Found a print screen of that pic of Kuja as a girl in progress, I wanted to share it with you all :)

I wonder...

2009-11-02T16:59:29Z

If you feel like you don't have the will to do anything, you start crying for no apparent reason, lock yourself and doesn't feel like talking to anyone does that mean you're with depression? Cuz if so maybe I'm depressed.

Halloween 2009 pic

2009-11-02T02:44:52Z

Have YOU been a naughty kid? by ~eikomakimachi on deviant ART

Happy Halloween!

2009-10-31T20:53:56Z

Happy Halloween for everyone ヾ(≧▽≦)ノ!!!!!!!!!

TinierMe

2009-10-29T19:57:44Z

TinierMe

My new addiction XP.

Oh, PLEASE D:, grow up!

2009-10-23T01:20:27Z

This is beyond art thief

Oh, just PLEASE, kiddo, get a life and grow up. Not to mention that a good number of the pics in Daily Deviation that he said were "stolen" from Pixiv could very well belong to the same artist <.<;;;;... It's funny how people seem to think that Japanese people don't use DeviantART and non-japanese people don't use Pixiv.

And well, whatever, if they were stolen, you're not doing much better than those art thieves, kid <.<;;

DeviantART Fanart meme

2009-10-22T02:52:03Z

Actually, this is just me seeing what I've been doing in DA all this years:

Today is: October 21st 2009
Member since:2003 (But I got active only in 2004)
First fandom: Final Fantasy IX
Most recent new fandom: Hetalia
3 characters most drawn: Kuja (FFIX) - 29 pics; Zexion (KH) - 24 pics; Zidane (FFIX) - 11 pics.
3 fandoms most drawn: Kingdom Hearts - 34 pics; Final Fantasy IX - 31 pics; Fruits Basket - 18 pics
3 top medias used Photoshop; colored pencils, watercolor.
How many art memes? 4

MEME :D!!! (cuz I'm lazy/bored to death)

2009-10-18T18:48:31Z

Boy or Girl Meme

YOUR BOY SIDE:

[x] you love hoodies
[ ] you love jeans
[ ] dogs are better than cats
[x] it's hilarious when people get hurt and fall (well, I laugh, but I also wince and hope the person didn't get hurt too badly. I preffer to see vid in which you see the person get back up and show he was all right)
[x] you've played with/against boys on a team?
[x] shopping is torture
[ ] sad movies suck
[ ] you own a XBOX
[x] you played with Hot Wheels as a little kid
[ ] at some point in life you wanted to be a firefighter
[x] you owned a DS PS2 or Sega (Only PS2)
[x] you used to be obsessed with Power Rangers
[ ] you watch sports on TV
[ ] gory movies are cool
[ ] you used to go to your dad for advice
[x] you have at least 1 trophy of a sport
[ ] You used to play Yu-Gi-Oh
[ ] baggy sweat pants are nice to wear
[ ] it's kind of weird to have sleepovers with a bunch of people
[x] green, black, red, blue, or silver are one of your favorite colors
[x] you love to go crazy and not care what other people think
[x] sports are fun
[ ] you sometimes talk with food in your mouth
[ ] you sleep at night with your socks on
[x] you have fished at least once

TOTAL= 11

YOUR GIRL SIDE

[x] you like to shop (but it is a torture D:)
[ ] you wear eyeliner
[x] you wear the color pink
[x] you go to your mom for advice
[ ] you consider cheerleading a sport
[ ] you hate wearing all black
[ ] you like going to the mall
[x] you like getting manicures and/or pedicures
[x] you like wearing jewelry
[ ] you cried watching The Notebook (The Notebook? what's that?)
[ ] skirts are a big parts of your wardrobe (well concidering I have more of them than pants, yes.)
[x] shopping is one of your favorite hobbies
[ ] you don't like the movie Star Wars
[x] you are/were in gymnastics (when I was little. Now I know that it wouldn't work XD)
[ ] it takes you around one hour to shower and get dressed
[ ] you smile a lot more than you should
[ ] you have more than 10 pairs of shoes
[ ] you care about what you look like majority of the time
[x] you like wearing dresses
[ ] you like wearing body spray/deoderant
[ ] you like high heel shoes (HATE)
[x] you used to play with dolls as a kid
[ ] you like putting makeup on others
[ ] you like being the star of almost everything

Total = 9

... Maybe when my friend said "You are a girl who look like a boy who looks like a girl" makes sense to me now <_<;;;;;

...

2009-10-17T04:07:31Z

Poor Kuja 2 - WTF by ~eikomakimachi on deviant ART

... please don't kill me XD

Vanilla Cafe - Updated!

2009-10-12T13:20:30Z

Vanilla Cafe - Home

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I've stopped being lazy and worked a bit more on my website XD. Gonna add more stuff later at night.

New Lelouch pic!

2009-10-08T22:51:40Z

OF COURSE THIS NOT EVEN HALF OF THE ORIGINAL PIC :P

Sketched it today during my morning class. I suddenly had my fangirlism for Lelouch all back after reading about an event that will be held by Sunrise on Lelouch's birthday (December 5th).

That's me trying to stay awake at 2AM

2009-10-06T20:09:01Z

APH - East Asia Doodle by ~eikomakimachi on deviant ART

Whatever, I was bored and still I couldn't go to sleep because of college.

Finished!

2009-10-01T02:21:17Z

Ichigo by ~eikomakimachi on deviant ART

New An Cafe album + Lily Allen show

2009-09-21T01:43:22Z

I listened to the new album and it's just great! An Cafe never fails to raise my humor and the nyappiness of my life.

Also, I went to Lily Allen's show and I loved it, it was one of the best shows I've ever gone, even though it was a bit emptier than I've expected. For some reason, I only went because two friend of mine asked me if I wanted to go. The dialogue was more or less like that:

Friend: But don't you know Lily Allen?
Me: Not that I remember... tell me a song.
Friend: Smile?
Me: ... ... which one is this one?
Friend: *sings the chorus*
Me: Oooooh, that one, I really like her songs! I'll go!

Apparently, unless I download the music's mp3 or have the cd I don't remember the artist's name nor the song's name XP.

Switzerland fanart :D!

2009-09-19T03:40:35Z

Switzerland in Wonderland by ~eikomakimachi on deviantART